“And He is jealous from me, loves
like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His
wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware
of these afflictions
Eclipsed by glory and I realize
just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are
for me
And oh, how He loves us, oh
Oh, how He loves us, how He loves
us all
And He is jealous from me, loves
like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His
wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware
of these afflictions
Eclipsed by glory and I realize just
how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are
for me
Oh, how He loves, yeah, He loves us
Oh, how He loves us, oh, how He
loves us
Oh, how He loves
And we are His portion and He is
our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in
His eyes
If His grace is an ocean, we're all
sinking
And heaven meets earth like an
unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside
of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these
regrets
When I think about the way
Oh, how He loves us, oh
Oh, how He loves us, how He loves
all
How He loves
I failed. I fell, and I didn't want to get up. This time I had
made a promise to Him that I really thought I could maintain. But I FAILED! It
was the worst feeling in my entire life, honestly I was sick to my stomach and
hated myself for letting it happen, heck for making it happen. And for a week
or two I just was too ashamed to even ask for forgiveness, I
didn't deserve it this time, this time it felt different, so I just
tried to stay out of His way. I prayed for the people, organizations, and
causes that still deserved His time and attention, but not for me. I
didn't enter into His presence, I couldn't, there just is no way He could still
accept me.
I feel like we all get to this point. We all let the Devil wear
the mask of Jesus. We assume that Christ's limitations in his love for us
is equal to our limitations in our love for others. It isn't. God
sent his son to cover the sin that you just committed, that when you go to
Him and repent, He acts as if it never happened. Yes there will be consequences
and a few scars, but He still loves you, and He can redeem anything! I mean
ANYTHING! You are perfectly broken, perfectly scarred, perfectly imperfect for
the perfect, all covering blood and love of our Savior, Father, and Lord.
The song “How He Loves Us” was put in my heart a long time ago.
The first time was August 25, I don't really know why, but at the end of my
quite time that day I wrote in big letters "HE LOVES. OH HOW HE
LOVES." The NEXT DAY we were getting ready to have a Hurricane and my mom
sent me this text as I was recovering from a concussion and unable to do
ANYTHING.
"When you are in the winds
of the hurricane today look at the David Crowder song "oh how he loves
us" and think he is bending you and covering you with his mercy. I so love
you, but nothing like he does. That should encourage you cause you
tangibly experience how much I love you. May your body continue to heal
as you are made to stop."
When I went to do my devo that
night I realized that I had written those lyrics just the night before, and
found it odd that a song I have not heard for so long would pop up in
two separate occasions. Since then it has come up at three other key
points in my life, as a song of healing and hope for what so often seems like a
bleak future.
My favorite part is...
And we are His
portion and He is our prize
Drawn to
redemption by the GRACE in His eyes
If His grace is an
ocean, we're all sinking
And heaven
meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
And my heart
turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have
time to maintain these regrets
When I think
about the way
HE LOVES
US!!!
When our worship band played
this, I was sitting there in my chair, too ashamed to stand and crying. I felt
Him say to me "I have things too big to allow you to sit there and REGRET
what has happened. REPENT and get on with it." See my problem lies
in the third sentence in this post... "I had made a promise to Him that I
really thought I could maintain." Neither you nor I will ever overtake a
sin. That is why we need Him first; He comes and loves us while we are dirty
and sloppy just as our parents loved us when we were born. It is not a pretty
sight, but because it is theirs they love the ugly alien covered in nasty
fluids. WE ARE HIS! We can never forget that, I can never forget that. He wants
to hold you NOW, He knows that you can never clean yourself, so He sent His Son
to clean you and the Holy Spirit to teach you how to stay clean. It is hard, I
get it, I fail, and you will too! Good news is... this world, and your life is
not about who you are or what you do, but rather who God is and what He has
done, is doing and will do! We just get an awesome opportunity to get in on the
action and adventure as He gives us an abundant life. Don't be ashamed of the
mess you are in, be grateful for grace, love, and the one that will come
and clean it up as you repent.
Watch this video as the man who wrote the song explains his story and heart behind the song, and remember God is made perfect in our weaknesses.
http://vimeo.com/10868953
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